precious in His eyes

really scared

2006-08-26T07:10:00.000-07:00

yes today i slept in the afternoon. and i dreamt that i had cancer. it actually didn't bother me..
but when i was walking back from drama at arrow.. it suddenly struck me about the cancer and i started to really panic. and i got very scared. i couldn't even think of anything. i started to feel woozy and i just went back to my room and lay down. and i started crying..
i don't know if i cried about sad things in my life that i never acknowledged before.. which i don't really know about till now.
but then i think it was kinda a sign from God to take shelter in him . that he's my refuge in times of doubt and sadness. so i plugged in my ipod and started singing some worship songs. and really i felt lots better.
well i don't know if i really have cancer or whatever cos of the bad headaches and me always being tired. but now my passion to know God more has been renewed..

a new idea today during alpha course

2006-08-22T08:28:00.000-07:00

today i had a new idea.. while nicky gumbel was speaking.. i suddenly thought about last week's topic. or whichever week's..
it was on reading the bible. cos its how God speaks to us..
then alot of people said sometimes when you read the bible.. you don't have any feeling. like feel quite empty and no near God kinda feeling. then i think to me..
when i don't sense God near me.. its cos He's putting more effort to bless someone else who needs it more than me. most likely the people i've been praying for.. so its like giving my God's presence to someone else for that period or day..
and its not like the feeling won't come back. cos God is always beside us. blessing us in whatever small ways . sometimes we don't notice it. but then every small tiny nook and cranny of our life is blessed because of Jesus Christ. who died on the cross to pay for our sins.
yupp. today we were talking about how should we pray.
and someone said.. as we grower stronger and mature in Christ. we tend to use more chim and Christ exalting words.. and sometimes that makes prayer too formal cos we use all those big vocabulary. and i'm thinking i'm gonna continue praying to God in my own way. no matter how kiddy i may sound. i just wanna praise him in my own way.
yupp to me.. at different times of the day i just like to say stuff like "Hello God what are you doing now ??" and like "hmmm should i do this.." all small things. but then it really helps me feel like God is just beside me. well at leastthe Holy Spirit. i've heard quite alot about the Holy Spirit but i'm still not THAT sure what its all about.. and the weekend retreat at Phillip Islands is going to touch all on the hOly Spirit. so cool !! which means from now on i have to study hard so i can spare time to go on the retreat ! !

Live Every Day As Though You Have Something Good To Give.

2006-08-18T07:35:00.000-07:00

Live Every Day As Though You Have Something Good To Give.

2 Corinthians 9:10 (NIV)
Now he who supplies seed to the sower and bread for food will also supply and increase your store of seed and will enlarge the harvest of your righteousness.

The Scriptures promise us that God will provide seed to the person who desires to sow. Some may say that they having nothing to give, but that is never the case as far as God is concerned. Take a look around. What do you have that can become a blessing for another? Something material, like money, clothes, books, cookware, etc.? What about intangible things, like a great attitude, a thankful heart, or a helping hand? You always have something you can sow. God would be unfaithful if you truly had nothing.
Change your mind about how you see your life. Rather than looking for people to solve your problems, find out what you can do to solve their problem. God, as always, will be faithful to His Word and “enlarge the harvest of your righteousness.”

Confession:
Father, I thank You for providing me seed to sow and for making me a blessing wherever I go, in Jesus’ name.

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yes i agree . no one in the world could possibly have nothing to offer to others. give with a big heart. but don't give unwillingly, give with a loving heart that wants to glorify God

i feel quite empty today. haven't been to church or OCF for two weeks. my spirit needs feeding. this week. it will be different

14june06-it takes time

2006-06-14T01:00:00.000-07:00

i always hoped for miracles to happen, but i try not to put too much faith in them because i'll get disappointed if they don't happen. and well... i guess nothing happens instantly and the same goes for God.
there really are no shortcuts to maturity ! we cannot rush our spiritual growth because we need to slowly learn Chirstlike character and become stronger so that we will be ready for our life in eternity.
i used to think i had surrendered my whole life to God. and thats what they always say at alter calls. surrendering your whole life into God's hands and letting Him work His way in you. to be saved by grace. well today after reading "the purpose driven life" day 28. i really think that we can't wholly submit our lives to God because there are a lot of things we are unaware of in our lives. and if you don't know them how do you surrender them. It really takes time to slowly learn things through sermons, books and learn more about yourself that u can realise all the small parts of yor life. things that happen subconsiously maybe ??
and in this ast paced world, everyone desires speed. i know it is definitely the case in singapore. and although life here in melbourne is more relaxed i know alot of the time i still am in a rush to get on with life. especially when i'm stressed and have a lot of work to finish up. i get a bit ruffled when people waste time or i don't know.. get wishy washy and stuff and don't make decisions quickly. as though pondering over ONE decision for such a long time will help make the decision easier. well learning christlike character is a long and slow process. its an arduos process that takes time.

firstly we are slow learners. we have to learn somethings over and over again before we rmb them. thats why i think this idea of a seperate blog is a good idea because i can read over my reflections and then i'll be able to jog my memory of what i realised about myself. this way i won't have to keep figuring out the same thing over and over again.

we have a lot to unlearn. there are so many habits already inculcated in us that developed over a period of time that it would take us some time to change and its again a tough journey of removal and replacement of out old thoughts and habits

sometimes we are afraid to humbly face the truths about ourselves. maybe it really happens. you're afraid to change because you'll start thinking who am i now that i'm different inside. its hard to explain. that admitting our character defects will make us feel miserable. realisation is tough because as i sometimes say "the truth hurts". but then we cannot grow without a humble and teachable attitude. if we are not willing to open our hearts to God and allow change, then i think it will create a barrier between us and God.

Growth is often painful and scary. change always involves a loss of some kind. Fear of losing your identity because you let go of your habit will slow your growth.

Habits take time to develop. only by doing things over and over again will you be able to make them ingrained in your memory and make it natural for you to do them. you have to practice Christlike character. patience, faithfulness, perseverance ?? never give up spirit ?> and always positive minded.

Believe that God is working in your life even when you don't feel it. Sometimes we don't feel God's presence in our lives but we must always keep our faith in Him and remember that He is watching over us and we have the help of the Holy Spirit in every part of our lives. there are seasons for everything. when we suddennly have growth spurt ad learn a lot and quiet times when we don't feel God near us for us to relect on what we have learnt and to practice them. a lot of times i have felt distant from God but i still know that He loves me and has a great plan for me. so never stop believing in God.

Keep a notebook or journal of lessons learnt. TA DAH ! isn't this what i'm doing. a good habit to cultivate !!hee

Be patient with God and yourself. God has planned everything before we were even born. so you don't have to worry that anything will go wrong. don't be in a hurry to mature too quickly

Don't get discouraged. don't get down because you repeatedly fall for the same temptation. admit your sin to God and repent and He will never stop loving you ever. He loves us so much that He will never stop forgiving us. its a slow and long process before we mature to become like Christ. never give up. perseverance is also a christlike character.

my walk with God is going to be a tough one with a lot of ups and downs but i know my God will always take care of me and never give me situations that are too tough for me to handle. and every tough spot i'm put in is to teach me a lesson in life. to develop my character.

13june2006-defeating temptation

2006-06-12T20:53:00.000-07:00

God will never give us too difficult a situation that we cannot handle with what he has given us.
there is always a way out of temptation and there's a four step process that can be followed:
1. refocus your thought on something else
- trying to defeat the thought will not make it go away. in fact i agree that the more you tel yourself "i don't want to eat so much" "i don't want to spend so much money" you actually think about it more. so just shift your attention onto something else. Keep the mind on God's word
2. reveal your struggle to a godly friend or a support group
-this way your friend will be able to pray for you and help keep u in check.
3. REsist the devil
-we can't stop the devil from trying to put bad thoughts into our head. but we can stop ourselves from believing the devil. God loves us and will bless us and as long as we have faith in Him. He will shower us with joy and all other godly things like love, patience, faithfulness and a lot a lot more.
4. recognise our vulnerability.
-don't get to cocky or overconfident. these two are the recipe for disaster. don't carelessly place yourself in a situation of temptation. its easier to stay away from temptation than to get out of it.

well i guess what the sin that this is talking about is a lot about sexual desires and stuff like that . but i also think that it can be applied to other areas. God's word can be applied to all areas of our lives. you could be struggling with an area like your studies. sometimes thoughts get into our head. thoughts like "i don't have enough time to study" "i'm not smart enough" and since my exams are coming up. it really applies because i believe that the Lord will bless me with good results.

song playing:
heart of worship-
every little thing-delirious

12june 2006- growing through temptation.

2006-06-11T20:32:00.000-07:00

well today i learned that every temptation is an oppurtunity to do good. we don't sin till we give in to temptation.
the fruit of the spirit gives us 9 things
joy
peace
wisdom
love
patience
kindness
goodness
faithfulness
gentleness
self control
he develops the fruit of our spirit by making us experience things that will give us the exact opposite feelings.
He teaches us how to LOVE by putting unlovel people into our lives
He teaches us to be patient by putting naggy parents ?? hahas. joking.
He teaches us real joy through sorrow where we find true joy in Him.

Satan uses a four step process to tempt us
1. he identifies a desire in us
2. he makes us doubt God's word against sin
3. 'the father of lies' deceives us.
4. disobediance- where the idea gives birth to behaviour and we choose to sin .

i guess we can't stop Satan from putting bad thoughts into our mind- thoughts that demean ourselves, think we are useless and unworthy but we can choose not to dwell or act on what he says.

i especially like it when they say : "The moment you became God's child, Satan, like a mobster hit man, put out a "contract" on you. you are his enemy and he's plotting your downfall"

hahas.. cool eh...
sometimes i think Satan gets to me. he/she/it makes me think how useless i've been how i'm not successful in my life now. my friendships, studies, time management, my catching up with friends back in singapore. and i start to wonder whether i'm really meant to be here, in Melbourne, to study. and am i really meant to be a dentist ?
dr myles munroe said:"if you hate something, you were born to fix it"
i don't even know what i hate. so how do i know if it's the right thing. sighs
well. now i guess i must just put into practice how to stop myself from being tempted.
i think maybe my problem is on spending money ?? putting fun first and studying second which is a BAAaad thing to do.
ok
1. recognise your pattern on temptation:where and when you get tempted
2.Request God's help. his twenty four hour emergency hotline will always be available to help us at any time of the day. just pray "HELP ME" or "SOS !!" and God will still be eager to give mercy and grace boldly. Since God is willing to help us defeat temptation, why don't we turn to Him more often !!??

James1:12

God blesses the people who patiently endure testing. Afterward they receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love Him.

God doesn't expect us to be perfectly good but he doesn't expect us to be perfectly awful either.

11 june 2006-transformed by trouble

2006-06-11T04:56:00.000-07:00

today's purpose in my life is to be transformed by trouble. everything in life happens for a reason, and every bad thing that we experience is carefully chosen by God himself to mould us to make us more like Him in every way

well i went with joel to ACCF this morning. woah . praise the Lord. i was realy praying to Him last night that i would be able to wake up early and study for a bit because i know i'll spend almost my whole day at church .

the sermon was really good. about the Holy Spirit and how He's not an 'it' he's the person of the creator. He is pure, He heals brokenness and dwells around us .
i really admire that pastor cos he could talk on and on for like don't know how long and be able to recite all the stories.

and well. i think God is just so awesome. he asked me to go to accf. and also planet shakers. and well they both kind of talked about the same things.

we had dr myles munroe at planet shakers today. he talked about rediscovering the kingdom of God. and that Christ lives in us and that we must take care of our body not for ourselves but because God lives in us. We must keep our body pure, without drugs, sex, smoke and tar because we don't live for ourselves, we live because god's spirit lives in us to colonialise the earth through our legal body .

whoo i also went for the eternity class where they talked about tithes and offering. giving to the Lord. placing him as number one priority in our life.

Today has been such a blessed day

10 june 2006- transformed by truth (all that i am-The Afters)

2006-06-10T02:00:00.000-07:00

happy birthday sara !!
i think this should be my priority blog. since its so nice and pretty and simple. hmmm and well its where i reflect on scripture and everything and revelations. i don't know if i'm ready to commit myself to reading the bible fifteen minutes a day. Rick Warren says if u spend fifteen minutes reading the Bible each day, you'd finish reading the book once a year.
well.. i will do my best !
today's is day24 and the purpose is to be transformed by the truth.
"if you continue in my word, then you are indeed my disciples, and you shall know the truth and the truth shall set you free" john8:31-32

i guess the truth is that God died on the cross for our sins to be forgiven. well. i rmb recently at one of the OCF cellgroup meetings, one said that God always tried to do something like press the reset button to let everyone start anew. He's create a big disaster so that all the sinners would die and then restart everything over again. but then He came up with a new idea. He sacrificed His only son-Jesus Christ so that he would create a direct pathway between Him and us so that we can give Him all our sin and repent.

God's word is our milk,bread,solid food, and sweet dessert---the four course meal on the Spirit's menu for spiritual strength and growth.
1.accept its authority
2.assimilate its truth- fill my mind with it:read the bible for 15minutes a day and reflect on it
3.appl its principles-just knowing it without implementation is useless

don't do things because of tradition, reason, culture or emotion.

receive it with an open receptive attitude. when i don't understand what the pastor is preaching in his sermon, i must first check my attitude. whether pride is blocking me from listening to what he says

i'm listening to "all that i am" by THE AFTERS.

i feel burning inside of me
i feel your spirit is moving around me
i hear your voice you call me closer
i know that you're here you're calling my closer
and i will ..love you with all of my heart
Jesus i love you with all of my mind
Jesus i love you with all of my soul
Jesus i love you with all that i am

i know that you hear me when i say my prayers
i know that you're with me even when i'm all alone
when i close my eyes you're calling me closer
when i pull away, you're pulling me closer
and i will love you with all of my heart
Jesus i love you with all of my mind
Jesus i love you with all of my soul
Jesus i love you with all that i am

You are holy
Lord God almighty
You are holy
Lord God almighty

my first post.

2006-06-09T02:30:00.000-07:00

this new blog. is for me to... hmm talk all about the greatness of the Lord. and to give praise and thanks for the wonderful things he does in my life each day. well. i have a feeling i will be like all messed up and confused. cos i just created one new blog for my unhappiness and sorrow. no one will ever find it anyway. i hope. i found out that its dangerous to say what u really feel on your blog. so my mismatched-shoes blog will only be for all the great things that happen in my life. so no one will ever know that i'm feeling down. well... God always knows when i'm sad anyway. i don't really need others.
i'm so happy ! elaine got attached to her senior. i don't know if its that guy i saw the last time i went out with all of them. during the SA days. yupps. X)
PRAISE THE LORD.

if u don't know jesus tonight. this song was written for u in mind.
you might have a broken heart broken life. but Jesus stands in front saying COME COME COME COME TO THE FATHER.

before the world began.. you were on His mind and every tear you cried is precious in His eyes
because of His great love, He gave His only son. everything was done so you would come
nothing u can do . will make Him love you more. nothing that you've done could make Him close the door. because of His great love. He gave His only son. and everything was done so you would come.
come to the Father. though your gift is small. broken hearts broken lives He will take them all. the power of the word. the power of his blood. everything was done so you would come.

so you would come-hillsong

praise the Lord that i'm alive. i commit my life into your hands. i am your beloved child. amen